I had a health “scare” recently that involved a malfunctioning blood sugar monitor.
.As a person who is very health conscious, and who has had gestational diabetes, I was very upset at the prospect of what appeared to be an indication of being diabetic or pre-diabetic.
When it was all said and done I found renewed clarity.
Here is what I learned and how it reinforced what I know about addictive behavior (or any other negative habit):
1. No matter how big the issue, living in the moment is crucial!
Trying to guess ahead to the final outcome of this led to 24 hours of suffering, and it wasn’t even necessary! My blood work was “perfect” according to the doctor.
2. Self deprecation is pointless and harmful.
Afterwards, I was tempted to say “what kind of idiot allows something to consume her so much that she doesn’t even verify the facts before reacting!?” I was tempted not to share because I felt it was a personal failing that I had reacted emotionally.
Do you catch yourself feeling the need to do everything right, always be aware of the facts, or never look silly?
It just isn’t reality! Everyone looks silly at times, overreacts and gets things wrong. Period.
3. Every crisis that has us thinking about our mortality is a beautiful opportunity to LIVE more fully!
You see, although diabetes is a national crisis, most people in the region where I live, see it as an inevitable part of life. I am talking about Type 2 diabetes that is primarily prevented by exercise and diet.
But for me? It conjures up images of people in my family that died before their time, most likely due to unmanaged diabetes.
For me? It represented the possible shortened life span.
For me? Having a diagnosis of diabetes was a bitter irony that although I exercise, and make my diet a priority, others who do not are still diabetes free.
I wouldn’t accept the opportunity in this for growth until I shifted my perspective.
Perspective Shifts I made (that also help to Overcome Addiction):
Perspective shift #1: Shift from Control to Surrender
The crisis came because I was trying to maintain control instead of choosing to recognize that I could do nothing about the past or future. I simply could do what I could to be healthy in that moment, and let all else go.
Perspective Shift #2: Shift From Judgment to Love
My crisis came because I got caught up in judging myself, the situation and others harshly. I judged due to fear, and not from a more helpful place of love. Instead of loving myself, I harshly judged myself for my perceptions. Instead of loving others, I was envious and angry at them for being healthier than me.
Perspective Shift #3: Shift from Denial to Acceptance
My crisis came because I wanted to avoid death, and the pain of the truth that someday I will cease to be in this form, or perhaps forever in any form.
My fighting against this pain increased my suffering two-fold. I wasn’t accepting the duality of life, the ambiguity and unpredictable nature of it and of all things.
Did you know these perspective shifts can also help you leave behind addictive behaviors as well?
I laid my old habitual response down yesterday. And yes, it was easier because I know the threat of diabetes has been averted.
But I know in my heart that my overreaction was a gift. It was silly, yes, and living from an anxious spirit. But it was a gift that led me to a deeper appreciation for my health, a deeper awareness of the importance of living in the moment, accepting the painful realities of life, and simply living from love for myself and others.
The only other option is fear.
And I cannot allow that to be my choice.
Fear is a driving force behind addiction. Love for self and others will lead you out. What’s your choice?