Feed the Right Wolf

Hi All,

I have been watching porn since, I don't know, a very long time. I think I am addicted to it. I realised that a few months back. Since then I have been trying to quit. Its really hard. I am not able go without watching porn and masturbating for even a week. I started visiting this site since last week. I was sober all the week. And today I had a relapse. I tried so hard. I could not control my self, I gave in. I wasn't strong enough. Does this mean I can never come out of the addiction? I don't know

But I know I cant be perfect and quit it just like that. Next time I hope I can stay longer before I give in to the temptation.

Its feels good to share this with you.

It doesn't mean you can't come out of it. I was addicted to masturbation doing it 3-4x a day sometimes for 10-15 years, I failed and failed even after joining this forum, but now I'm regularly making it 1 to almost 2 weeks. I'm not there yet, but I'm definitely getting there, and you can too! Honestly, the biggest thing is just finding a set of activities to keep you occupied. Boredom is the worst. As for visual stuff...get a filter. I just got K9 because I've been doing well with masturbation but I still just can't stay out of the visuals for anything. Now I don't have to worry about it. I can't access it anymore, at least not easily. I know it's the only way I'm going to stay out of it. I know it sounds drastic and a nuisance, but...I wish that I had done this a long time ago. You should seriously consider a filter if you absolutely can't stay out of it.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13

Welcome, kalleBlomkvist.

I'm glad you had the courage to post here and do something about the problem. Keep coming back and posting; when you help yourself you are helping us all, and vice versa.

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Thanx tobefree and Absolution for your support. And yeah tebefree, I ought to get a filter.