I am a recovering sex addict. I started looking at soft porn when I was in Highschool at the age 15. Since then I have gone from watching soft porn to Sadistic. Too ashamed to think How could I do it. I was caught out by my wife, Not to hurt her , I got rid off all the porn collection. Started going to recovery group. My heart was not right. Secretly I Craved all the while for porn, sex outside marriage. I was caught once again by my wife, having sex outside marriage. She had no choice, the chances she had given for me to sober was over. She had to leave me. Yet I did not sober up. After 2 1/2 years of seperation, I woke up, this is not who I am. I confessed to God, Started attending recovery group. I wanted to be sober, not because of someone. For this is the right thing, I have lost my identity because of my addiction. I am honest with God, with myself, group, freinds. I do not have to lie any more. I want to be honest, for mysake. Since awakening from deadness. I had a couple of slipups. It is my 28th day of being sober. When I am tempted or somecrazy thing happens, I call up my friend and let him know. Pray together. Now I can conversation not with the ladies or girls chest, but looking into their eyes. I am glad I found some good stuff here. ERP is good and helping me out. No televison, Computer is protected by filter. Thank you guys. I will start righting how I go on the Journal forum.