Feed the Right Wolf

Hey Cojerc,

14ps. It was a nice day. 2days left. No panic attacks yet. Lol.
Have to do final touch ups. Just hoping for two more good days.


Didn't saw your post? Hope all is well. Take care of yourself.


Flit.

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If yu're in a hot air balloon, yu hv to burn some fuel every now & then to keep the air heated & stay high in the air. If yu wait until the balloon gets dangerously low, yu hv to burn a ton of fuel to gt bck up to whr yu need to be. - Absolution

Hi guys, I let you all down. I relapsed. My routine has severely been disturbed. Before I could find a routine again, I relapsed. Now I'm feeling very low. Very low towards my exam. I am scared. My heart is heavy. I'm venting out here. When I can see any change in my life. Lot of things happening in my life. All was well one week back. But I must accept that one thing that i won't have control over is change!. So I can't keep blaming on anyone. I must adapt. I choose to change myself to face the reality. I should live in the reality.

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Last day PMO - 08/05

cojerc. It happened now learn from it. Why did it happen?
What went wrong? Where did you let your guard down?
1 Relapse does not have to spell defeat for you. Pick up and carry on.
Just learn from it and be a little more strict with yourself.
Peter

Hi cojerc,

We've all been there.... it seems that even those of us that have been really successful had some relapses along the way. Part of getting better is learning why we are addicted... sometimes that means falling down. We just have to learn from it when it happens. Even if it happens over and over again, just don't lose hope!

Cojerc,

I am proud of you for your recovery so far. Don't let this turn into a bigger problem, keep coming back! Let's figure out what lead to this relapse so we can prevent it from happening again

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Hi Cojerc,

What does one relaps mean in comparision to thirty some sober days plus 40 days earlier? So all in all over 70 days and only one or two "relapses". In that comparision those are no relapses but a minor distraction (really). You can't compare 76 to 2 or 3. Imagine a boxer who won 76 contests and lost only 2 or 3 . He is still a world champion ( with that record)!!!
Now don't think about 2,3 but about 76 and don't go on a binge. That can be only dangerous and really lost cause.I would be so happy having your score (76 to 2)!!!

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Cojerc, don't get down on yourself. You have had success. Sometimes in order to get to where you want to be you have to sometimes take 2 steps forward and one step back. Where would we be in the world if the people you discovered, say how to broadcast pictures over the air (tv), if they did not fail and fail again? Each time they failed they learned what went wrong and fixed the problem. Where are we now? TV all over the world in an instant. Your recovery is the same thing. Every time you fail, analyze what happened, figure out why it happened and then institute the changes necessary to make sure it doesn't happen again.

Stay positive and don't give up, my friend.

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Sobriety date: November 6, 2011
In all you do, remember the end of your life and then you will never sin. Sirach 7:36

Love and time can heal just about anything.

Failure is not an option.

Hey Cojerc,

Don't let yourself lose that faith you have in yourself and in your recovery. It's just a bump in your bumpy ride in this recovery. I will be back soon to be there to support you. Stay strong and focus on your studies. Chuck whatever happened, right now your goal is to succeed in your upcoming exam. Don't let your guard be down just cause you had a relapse. Maybe you had this relapse because you weren't frequent on this site and were going out of focus. Keep coming back and post here. I myself was struggling few times cause of all those distracting fantasies so I started again to give a visit here in every day or two.

About my exams.. Well let's just say I am hailing through this. Result will tell everything now. I gave my best so far. 4 went and 4 left. Pray for me please.



Flit.

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If yu're in a hot air balloon, yu hv to burn some fuel every now & then to keep the air heated & stay high in the air. If yu wait until the balloon gets dangerously low, yu hv to burn a ton of fuel to gt bck up to whr yu need to be. - Absolution

Hi Peter,

The reason is I lost focus on my preparation for my exam. Now I'm back with my preparation. Thanks a lot peter for your help



Hi amdg,

I agree with you, I learnt now and have to move forward.



Hi friend Absolution,

Now I clearly understood what you said 'To relinquish control' at the same time to accept we always need Higher power's guidance to deal with this addiction. I figured it out, increase stress related to the preparation of my exam and other personal issues caused my relapse, but i take complete responsibility for my actions. Thanks friend.



Hi mombasa,

I agree with you 100%, we don't need to be perfect for getting recovered. Really until now when you pointed out I didn't think in this persepective. 2 or 3 is nothing compared to 70+ days. Thank you mombasa



Hi ineedhelp,

Thanks friend, there has been immense support around here. I'll not give up friend. As you said I've taken enough steps forward to worry about one step back.



Hi Flit,

Glad that you have done your best in your exams so far. I will pray for you for the rest of the exams. Yes, I was out of focus, I hope I can bring back my focus and stay strong. I will visit here daily friend.

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Last day PMO - 08/05

Today's exam was real bad. Worse 'em all. I just hope that I clear this one. I've to work hard for the next 3 to recover the marks and cover for the loss.

I hope you had a good day.
Study smart.!!



Flit.

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If yu're in a hot air balloon, yu hv to burn some fuel every now & then to keep the air heated & stay high in the air. If yu wait until the balloon gets dangerously low, yu hv to burn a ton of fuel to gt bck up to whr yu need to be. - Absolution