Feed the Right Wolf

March 21

Self care list: slept good;
ate healthy 3 meals;
stayed hydrated;
mindful meditation 15 min;
read recovery literature.
postponing gratification.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Stress, Anxiety,Iritation/Anger.

How did i get out of isolation:visited some friends, went on a walk, went to the university.

Positive things that I've learn: A paradigm conjugates all the realities of the subject in hand.

Things that I'm thankful for:Getting back the life that I truly deserve on step at a time.

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March 24

Self care list: slept good;
stayed hydrated;
ate healthy 3 meals;
postponing gratification;

Strong emotions that I felt during the day: Anxiety, Iritation, Excitement.

How did I get out of isolation: Went to a friends house and chilled all day.

Positive things that I've learned: Semantic memory is based upon remembering words rather than numbers and images.

Things that I'm thankful for:changing my life, finding insight, changing my beliefs.

Sobriety date : 19th of March

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March 25: well this day has gone awfully wrong...I'm back to day 1. I can't seem to stay away more than a week, added to this I can't recall what fueled the relapse. Hope that I will do better next time.

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Hi Sabu,

It takes time. as I mentioned on another journal, any sober time is a great thing. Keep coming back and moving forward, and it'll get easier.

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

March 26

Self care list: slept good 10 h;
stayed hydrated;
journaling;
mindful meditation 20 min;
read recovery literature;
ate healthy 3 meals.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day: Sadness, Dissapointment, Negativity, Anger.

Negative beliefs that affected my day Belief: that I won't be able to have a healthy sexual relationship because of my addiction. Truth: If I keep up staying away from my addictive behaivour
I will be able to heal and get my life back.

Positive things that I've learned: What we perceive as reality is actually a domain of frequencies,in wich our brain works like a magnifying glass decoding these frequencies and transforming them into mental images.


How did i get out of isolation:went to the university and at a friends house.

Things that I'm thankful for: the place where I am right now, that I didin't give up the fight.

[b]Sobriety date[b]: 26th of March

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March 27

Self care list: slept good 10 h;
stayed hydrated;
ate healthy 3 meals;
journaling;
mindful meditation 15 min;
read recovery literature;
ERP practice.
Strong feelings that I felt during the day: Calmness,Anxiety,Excitement,Curiosity.

Negative beliefs that affected my day:Belief: I have very strong needs and fantasies that I need to fulfill. Truth:The strong needs and fantasies are a result of impaired thinking, faulty beliefs and delusion if I walk away I will contribute to my health.

Positive things that I've learned: The law of karma says that everything is interrelated and everything affects everything else.

How did I get out of isolation: Went to visit a friend.

Things that I'm thankful for: my friends, that I'm continuing my road of a thousand steps.

Sobriety date 26th of March

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March 28 :I'm not proud , but I slipped again today it occurred in the afternoon as soon as I ended my conversation with my sister and closed my door to my room. I'll try to be more focused and keep myself busy.

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April 1

Self care list:slept good 10 h
ate healthy 3 meals;
stayed hydrated;
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Excitement,Anxiety,Irritation,Frustration.

How did I get out of isolation: Traveled;

Things that I'm thankful for: that i'm still trying to move forward,that i'm able to see things with a clear mind.

Sobriety date 29th of March

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April 2

Self care list: slept good 10h;
ate healthy 3 meals plus snack;
stayed hydrated;
journaling;
ERP practice;
read recovery literature.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Negativity,Stress;

Negative beliefs that affected my day:that sex is my most important need; Truth: If i stay away from these kind of thoughts I will contribute to my own health.

How did I get out of isolation: Went to visit a friend on the other side of town.

Things that I'm thankful for: my sister for always calling me.

Sobriety date 29th of March

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Hi, Sabu.

I'm glad you're getting some clarity with your recovery. Keep moving forward and this continues to increase over time.

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore