Feed the Right Wolf

April 15

Self care list:slept good 10 h;
ate healthy;
stayed hydrated;
journaling;
mindful meditation 20 min;
read recovery literature;
ERP practice.

Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Boredom,Anxiety,Excitement.

Negative beliefs that affected my day:none.

How did I get out of isolation:had some freinds over, visited a friend.

Thins that I'm thankful for:that one day I will change for good my brain circuitry, having good friends.

Sobreity date April 13th

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April 16

Self care list:slept good 10 h;
stayed hydrated;
ate healthy;
journaling;
ERP practice.

Strong emotions that I flet during the day:Regret,Excitement,Embarissment.

Negative beliefs that affected my day:belief:That it wouldn't be so bad to seek for relief.
truth: I will contribute to my health if I wlak away.

How did I get out of isolation: Hanged out with friends.

Positive things that I've learned: Matter is diveded into tow groups non livning matter and living matter. the non living matter forms that mineral regnum while the living matter forms the vegetal and animal regnum.

Thins that I am thankful for:that my birthday is coming up, that I had a nice easter.


Sobriety date April 13th

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April 17

Self care list: slept good 10h;
stayed hydrated;
ate healthy;
journaling;
ERP practice;

Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Boredom,Stress,Irritation,Anger.

Negative beliefs that afected my day:belief:That it's normal to get angry real easy.
truth: I need to use the proper tools to deal with my reptilian outbursts.
How did I get out of isolation:Hanged out with freinds.

Things that I'm thankfull for:Being were I am right now, that I lived to reach 23 today, and my family.

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Good for you Sabu. You have some good ideas and I will be interested in following your progress with future posts.
clearskycoming

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Kind regards, CSC

"I wished for nothing beyond her smile, and to walk with her thus, hand in hand, along a sun-warmed, flower-bordered path. (Andre Gide)"

Been a NEW MAN since: April 16, 2012

April 18

Self care list: slept good 10h;
ate healthy;
stayed hydrated;
journaling;
ERP practice;
mindful meditation 5 min.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Calmness,Excitement,Happiness,Peace(interior).

Negative beliefs that affected my day:belief:Sex is my most important need. Truth: I should see wich other parts of my life need improving instead.
belief:If I don't look at porn maybe it's ok to fantasize and act out. Truth: Acting out while fantasizeing would isolate me in a dream world at first, poisoning my brain, and surely in time would not be so satisfying and would require stronger matterial to get the same pleasure out of it.

How did I get out of isolation:Celebrated my birthday with firends at my house.

Positive things that I've learned:That I give to much attention to situations, problems ,thoughts.

Things that I'm thankfull for:my close friends,the gifts wich I recevied,that I'm more motivated to continueing my journey.

Sobriety date 13th of April

"There is no habitual thought pattern, emotional response or typical action wich we cannot change"

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April 19

So it was 4 am and i still wasn't sleeping, drank some coke and kept me up and found myself fantasizeing in bed, a warning sign that my sobriety was in danger, so i used abcd model got passed it but still couldn't sleep. i found myself acting out,no porn no nothing, i guess it's a relapse but I know that i will fight the poisoning of my brain. The rest of the day I was focused on being sober since i woke up till the end of the day.

Self care list:stayed hydrated;
ate healthy;
ERP practice;
journaling;
read recovery literature.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Excitement, Anxiety,Irritation,Joy,Calmness.

Negative beliefs that affected my day:none.

How did I get out of isolation:went outside practiced sports.

Things that I'm thankfull for:that I'm still skillful at sports after a long brake, my xbox console for keeping me busy and having fun.

"Ther is no habitual thought pattern, emotional response or typical action wich we cannot change"

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April 20

Self care list: slept good 10 h;
ate healthy;
stayed hydrated;
journaling;
ERP practice;
read recovery literature.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:excitement,anxiety,stress,joy,happiness,fulfillment.

Negative beleifs that affected my day:none.

How did I get out of isolation:went outside practiced sports.

Thigs that I'm thankful for:that I'm keeping a clear mind, that I'm changeing my beliefs.

Sobriety date April 20

"There is no habitual thought pattern, emotional response or typical action wich we cannot change"

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April 21

Self care list:slept good 10 h;
stayed hydrated;
ate healthy 3 meals;
journaling;
ERP;
read recovery literature;
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Anger,Regret,Shame,Frustration.

Negative beliefs that affected my day:belief:that I'm an awful person when I get really angry, and can't control what I say.
truth:I should use abcd model to bypass the impulses from the reptialian brain, also I felt intense regret on my words, but I belive I can change this also.
How did I get out of isolation:went on a long walk, went to a party.

Positive things that I've learned: Vimanas were first discussed in the ancient sanskrit text of Mahamuratah almost 4500 years ago.

Things that I'm thankful for:that my family accept my apologies after my outburst, that I have a counscience, that I'm feeling much better.

Sobreity date April 20

"There is no habitual thought pattern, emotional response or typical action wich we cannot change"

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April 22

Self care list:slept good 10 h;
ate healthy 3 meals;
ERP practice;
journaling;
read recovery literature.
Strong emotions that I felt during the day:Anger,Irritation,Compasion.

Negative beliefs that affected my day:Belief:Sex is my most important need. Truth:I should see wich areas of my life need improving.

How did I get out of isolation:Played hacky sack, visited a friend at his house.

Things that I'm thankful for:my family, the food I eat, the things I own, that I'm getting better.

Sobriety date Friday 20th of April

"There is no habitual thought pattern, emotional response or typical action wich we cannot change"

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Hi Sabu,

I'm glad you're still moving forward after a relapse. Keep going!

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore