Feed the Right Wolf

I loved it that you say rewiring your brain and I think your comments that "you only watched it for 10 min and it was only Youtube crap" is very important too.

It's just like a baby learning to walk and in doing, so falls over a few times. The baby that tries - WILL LEARN.
The baby that doesn't try to walk is on trouble.

You may have relapsed, but , you can hardly say you haven't changed. You have changed massively. Just the way you are responding to this show it.
You made 22 days. I still recognise that as a great achievement.

(I'm sorry I am a math / stats freak...)

Formerly, IF you acted out and watched porn every day 365 days a year....as I used to
And now you have gone 22 days not viewing or acting out. Here's your achievement...

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Frequency of acting out, 365 x per year down to 17 x per year, that is an astonishing 95% performance improvement!
Anybody in any field of endeavour who can manage a 95% performance improvement in their first go should be congratulated!

PS your comments on Binge Control are spot on too! CSC

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Kind regards, CSC

"I wished for nothing beyond her smile, and to walk with her thus, hand in hand, along a sun-warmed, flower-bordered path. (Andre Gide)"

Been a NEW MAN since: April 16, 2012

Thanks for your encouragment, CSC. I tend to be a bit of a statistics freak too.

Anyway, yesterday was fine. No binge so far. Still have to be careful the next couple days though.

I did resubscribe to WoW yesterday, for better or worse. I never set a time limit on myself before, but I think that if I set a time limit on myself, I can control my playtime and be satisfied with I can get accomplished in that time. It'll give me one more thing to do to occupy some of my free time, and I just really enjoy playing it.

I went for a hike yesterday after work with a couple people.

Working a 13 hour shift today.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13

Today I found 3 fellow Christians who have a sunday evening Bible study together. I'm thinking about going tomorrow night. We're getting 3 new people next week, so that might help some with the really long shifts. This week was actually pretty light, at only 53 hours. I'll have 30 hours of overtime in my next paycheck.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13

Why do girls have to be so provocative? This girl after work started talking to me, and I came and sat down next to her, and realized then that her shirt was so low and so loose that you could see like 3/4 of her bra.

Anyway, I'm debating if I want to go to this Christian service tonight. If it was earlier, I definitely would have gone.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13

Oh man, tell me about it! I'm in high school. I walk around school hallways through girl after girl showing too much and it makes me so mad.

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Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

- 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

So I went to the service, and um...there was nobody there.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13

That blows! Are there other services you could go to at other places close by? Might be an alternate option.

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With my work schedule? Not really. I work most sunday mornings. I did talk to the people who invited me though, and they said that it was canceled this week because there wasn't enough people, but that there will be one next week.

I got another female trainee a couple days ago. Lol...this is getting kind of amusing now.

On a more serious note, someone that I work with had a terrible accident on sunday, and was medivaced to the hospital. She's been in and out of surgery for 3 days now in ICU. She's going to live, but she's in really bad condition. She has numerous broken/shattered bones, a collapsed lung, and doctors say it will be a very long time before she is able to walk again. The only good news is that her back and head are okay.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13

Owww, I hope she's ok. :/ Is she close to you?

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Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

- 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Relatively, yea. She is finally out of ICU today.

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When fear knocks, let faith answer the door. -Joel Osteen.

Modesty is sexy.

Last time I self-harmed: 5/13/13
Last time I masturbated: 5/13/13
Last time I watched porn: 5/13/13