Feed the Right Wolf

Change can only come from within. My aim is to fill in this forum every night before I sleep.

Checklist
8 Hours of Sleep done
Meditation done
Praying on time done
Afternoon prayer done
Reading Recovery forum done
Exercise
ERPdone


Strong Emotions hope for a better future, happiness for taking this path, relief from guilt

Strong Negative Believes. The thought that I may fall back into the pit-dispair

Isolation and how did I get away from it- kept busy and with ppl'all day, did not stay home

Positive experience I can do this and I will do it.

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Welcome, Freshstart.

I'm glad you had the courage to post here. Keep coming back; when you help yourself you are helping us all, and vice versa.

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Thank you for your support and I hope we all can benefit each other in this struggle

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Checklist 8 Hours of Sleep done
Meditation done
Praying on time done
Afternoon prayer done
Reading Recovery forum done
Exercisedone
ERPdone

Strong Emotions joy that I can one day make this word a better place, stress over upcoming exams and my piling work,

Strong Negative Believes I am not as perfect as I would like to be and I need to strengthen my personality and knowledge

Isolation and how did I get away from it-played football with my little brother and did not use the computer

Positive experience i experienced leading a study group and that gave me confidence. I need to be more outspoken and proactive because I am not inferior to anyone.

Other comments life is all about achievements and the greatest achievement for me is to overcome my desires. I remember the days where I went 34 days clean, I felt on top of the world. I understood everything and life was clear. I became close to god. I want live every moment of my life with clarity and serenity and with a focus on helping others.

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Welcome freshstart
You keep thinking about how you felt 34 days sober.
It will help you in your recovery.
Peter

Thanks peter for your support and i hope one day we will move together over the one year hurdle

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Checklist
8 Hours of Sleep done
Meditation done
Praying on time prayed one prayer half an hour late
Afternoon prayer done
Reading Recovery forum done
Exercise not much other than walking
ERPdone

Strong Emotions I am so tired these days but very happy because I am doing his gain with a new method and better prospects.

Strong Negative Believes I am having withdrawal symptoms

Isolation and how did I get away from it only go on the computer with a purpose and turn it off when that purpose is done.

Positive experience I can be the best and there is only one thing stopping from doing so.but I won't let it disturb me anymore

Other comments. I started to recognise withdrawal symptoms, headache, foggy head, apetite loss, tirednessand a bit of anxiety. It is great that I recognised those which means that I know that I am not depressed but only suffering from withdrawal which will go away soon if I keep presevering at this.

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Hi freshstart,

Keep persevering, withdrawal symptoms do go away. Good Luck.

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Last day PMO - 08/05

Thanks cojerk, it went away today and I had a good time

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Checklist
8 Hours of Sleep done
Meditation done
Praying done
Reading Recovery forum done
Exercise not much other than walking
ERPdone but I need to do more

Strong Emotions relief that I have done an exam.

Strong Negative Believes I was annoyed because while walking at uni I saw the soccer team that i tried out for playing.

Isolation and how did I get away from iti was at uni all day and when I came back I invited a friend over

Positive experience I believe I did well in the exam and part of it was related to me staying sober. I have had a few exams where I fell and that caused my results on these exams to decrease from the usual. I will be facing a few tough weeks due to the large amount of material that I need to cover. I need to maintain control over my stress and manage it well so I dont lose this battle.

Other comments. I started to recogni withdrawal which will go away soon if I keep presevering at this.

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Denial leads to repeated failure