Feed the Right Wolf

Pretty tough day, I need to reorganise myself but I am still sober. 29 days no need to give up now.

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Emotions. Uselessness, waste,

Strong Negative belief just a small peak won't hurt.

Isolation family time

Positive experience got my dad to start going to the gym

Comments. Well it has been a long journey. I want to continue forward. I need a motivational booster right now. I am losing motivation to do anything. I think the cause lies in the fact I have not been doing my prayers on time in the past few days. Its time for me to get back on track and keep focused. Back to uni tomorrow so there will be a lot of urges and I need to be strong. However I will have less free time which will be great. 30 days passed since my last porn episode. I need to somehow celebrate this in order to keep my motivation up.

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Hi Freshstart,

Congratulations on making it to 30 days! Look back on where you were vs. where you are now. Remember to not get complacent and to work on recovery no matter how far along you are.

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Thank you absolution I will always keep that in mind.

Emotions. Stress of exams

Strong Negative belief I am not prepared for the exam

Isolation uni

Positive experience I can't get complacent

Comments. Back to uni stress. One point ot consider is that I have so much more time to perform all kind of activities because I stopped watching porn and masturbating. This week will be very busy with an exam on Thursday.

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Busy day today and busy day tomorrow.

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Day 32 done. Not much to talk about other than that I studied

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Today is day 34 and by making it through today, I would break my previous recore,. Yay

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Hi Fresh,

Congratulations, I'm sure you made it... keep moving forward!

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Day35 done
Thank you absolution

Strong emotion blurred

Strong Negative belief watching movies is not a problem

Isolation bad strategy of staying at home

Positive experience survived the worst day

Things I am grateful for
I am still sober
This forum

Comments
This has been the toughest day of my campaign. I should never ever begin a day without a clear plan. The urge wws so strong. The challenge was so difficult, I started looking for movies that contained possible sexual scenes. Of course and luckily I was like wait a second what the hell and turned off the computer.I should never go onto computer with empty persuits.
Few points to consider
I got a bit busy in last few days to post my usual amount and I have no excuse. I need to do it regularly again.
I started watching too many movies
I need to retain focus on studying
I need to get back to reading books and newspaper articles
I need an extra soccer training session in the week
Altho I am going to the gym, I need more organisation and focus on which muscle groups I need to work on.
I need to sleep better

No more playing cheeky games, time to get back on track.

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Denial leads to repeated failure

You are doing well.
Keep it up.
It is really difficult for a young man, so be proud of yourself.
Trust that your prayers would work

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I will cease being a slave to my past.