Feed the Right Wolf

Dear fellow masturbation and porn addicts,

I have been stressed as hell the past few weeks in my life, and as a result, I have been masturbating everyday, sometimes even multiple times a day. I have wasted hours and hours on downloading porn and getting off. Every time I orgasmed it felt weaker and weaker and I craved more of it to compensate. I have jerked off so much in the past few weeks that my left wrist is killing me from it. I've felt this for a few days now, and I've finally realized that it's from masturbating to porn so much. My dick is sticky from all the vaseline I've used, and I now consider it the Devil's Goo. My glans is all dried out and sensitive, and I have no love life or sexual interests outside of the women in porn. This has got to end, so I am making a plan and embarking on my journey to recovery.

Goal: Recover from masturbation and porn addiction.

Why: Because masturbating to porn is destroying my human sexuality. I am wasting time and energy on this, which does not benefit my life in any way whatsoever, except for the useless, instant gratification of getting off. I would like to have sexual intimacy with women, and porn and masturbation is distracting me from this desire.

How:
• Porn Addiction Recovery Course: http://www.feedtherightwolf.org/files/f ... course.pdf
• Sexual Recovery Plan
• Porn Recovery Journal

See you on the other side!
-Dance, Sucka!

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

I just finished doing my first ERP exercise, which was pretty cool!

I channeled my sexual thoughts and started to get an erection, and then I measured my pulse. Next, I executed deep breathing exercises and read positive affirmations. It felt pretty good, although my pulse was higher afterwards. Even by just doing this exercise, whether it in fact worked or not, I have affirmed my efforts to recover. I will get over this addiction and I will start dramatically improving my lifestyle. I have the belief and the desire to do so.

More information on ERP can be found here: http://www.feedtherightwolf.org/2010/05 ... hing-porn/

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

Considered skipping my workout this morning. But I was like hell no I am not watching porn or masturbating. It seems like I have a strong emotional opposition to masturbation/porn after some of this work I've been doing. Now, I just need to create a strong emotional connection to working out so I can get ripped

My plan is to start working again, no matter what, on Monday. Wish me luck suckas!

-Dance

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

Well today I thought about porn/sex/masturbation several times. I don't know what to call it specifically, so I just clump it all together. I'd MUCH rather be thinking about cute girls and not porn-related stuff. Even better, having sex with real girls, and not fake, fictional porn girls. Well they're not fakes themselves, they're actresses.

Anyway, tomorrow morning I shall workout and my body will begin its magnificent transformation! See you on the other side, friends!

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

Today I downloaded porn and whacked off. My jizz was pretty explosive which was awesome! But I need to get back on (off?) the porno wagon.

I was held back by sleeping over with 2 girls and not getting any, so I was pretty horny and sleep deprived the next day (didn't sleep well.) My major goals for right now are to regain and maintain my porn/masturbation sobriety, and resume my workout routine after taking about 3 weeks off.

I am very sidetracked, it's also finals week, but the end is in sight: Friday.

Sober since 5/15.

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

K ima remind you again to watch the graphic language.

I don't know if you want feedback, but from where I sit it seems like you might need to adjust the attitude about recovery a bit.

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Thank you! I do appreciate your feedback I will try and keep it up to PG-13 as to not offend anyone. I should also make it clear that my recovery is different from most people. My ultimate goal is to become sexually mature, responsible, powerful, and experienced. Porn and masturbation are holding me back, because they give me an unhealthy outlet to channel my sexual energy, and they are antisocial as well. This is not the answer to exploring and developing human sexuality, and I must put an end to this bad behavior, while maintaining the fact that I am a highly sexual person with strong sexual drives and fantasies. A healthy mind and body is my destination, and stopping porn and masturbation is the beginning of my road map.

I shall stay sober and show my demons there is a better way, so that they may become angels.

-Dance

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

I have a very important and difficult final exam tomorrow and stress is making me procrastinate and want to masturbate. Need I remind myself that porn and masturbation are disallowing me to have sexual intimacy with women. If I want to be a successful man, and attract women, I will have to confront and eliminate this distraction that is masturbation.

I will do my work and get it done, and reap the benefits of sobriety!!!

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

Oh my God, I keep looking at girls! Once I have a strong handle on my sobriety I am going to work the hell out of my social skills. I don't want their beauty to phase me, only to intrigue me, therefore I must become comfortable being surrounded by beautiful women.

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Goal: April 20th, 2013

I have been super horny lately. Last night I pumped myself a few times when I went to bed, then decided to go to sleep. In the morning I was also rubbing myself. I remember I had sexual dreams too, which I love having. I've had sex with crushes and random girls I know in my dreams. I've heard that sex itself isn't that great (for people who aren't compatible/experienced) but the anticipation and turn-on feels amazing! Sex is a lot about fantasy so I can understand why so many guys might have trouble with porn/sex/masturbation addiction. Fantasies just feel so good. My mission is to live my fantasies and become a sexual badass. Right now I am working on many different goals: porn/masturbation recovery, healthy diet, losing weight, lifting weights, and soon penis enlargement. My ultimate goals are a healthy and exciting lifestyle and personality. Wish me luck dudes!

-Dance

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Goal: April 20th, 2013