Seeing a prostitute
I had my phantasies , cause I have seen so many porn movies.
Women , aroused, throwing themselves at you in sexual ectasy. I will have sex with one , no two women, many many times.
The reality was quite different - You make a secret phone call ( most of the times they don't answer, because they are just with another guy just like you) .
You make up a lie to get to her place . Money get's transferred. Rarely are they as pretty as you think they are from the ads.
The degrading health inspection. The shower and the half open bottle of mouth wash ( how many guys have had a sip out of this )
The conversations. I am a good judge of people and quickly figure out what is behind the fassade. Often I felt sorry for the single mum, the older woman , the sad young one. The massage which is never arousing, the mechanical sex, followed by a feeling of guilt. What a waste of my hard earned cash.
The feeling of guilt , when you sneak out of her place like a thief. Hang on - that guy sitting there on the park bench, waiting - he will be the next client, cause she has already seen 7 guys before you and has another 3 booked. To her you are just a customer and everthing you see is fake.
I am so glad I am not doing that anymore. Sober ever since I joined this forum. I'd say I easily saved thousands of dollars . And no more lies or guilt.
yes I have been away from the forum and haven't posted - but this forum has been one of the great big changes in my life.
Don't do anything by half. If you love someone, love them with all your soul. When you go to work, work your ass off. When you hate someone, hate them until it hurts.