Feed the Right Wolf

Back to day 0 -

I wasn't watching porn at all, I was just watching youtube videos about some cute swimsuit model but I ended up masturbating to that.

It doesn't matter what I use as long as the result is the same.
I will avoid youtube from now on as well.

I wonder if there is a point. My life ain't bad. I am young now but I only had a serious girlfriend once and she was bi-polar.

I don't know if I'll get the right girl or is she exists? Maybe she lived and died. Maybe she was never born. I wish I could feel satisfied and happy again without a girl.
Wish I could change my mind set to feel happy with who I am. A handsome, intelligent, healthy man with no girlfriend.

Day 0 -

I decided that the dating scene isn't for me.
Instead, I am going to start looking in Thailand.

This sounds more promising than looking online in dating sites.

End of day 1

Ever since I joined this forum I saw a huge change in my life for the better.
There is still a lot of work to be done but I see changes.


See you all tomorrow.
Bye

Day 4 -

Wow it felt like forever since I came here.

I am doing better job of being myself.

Good luck to everyone.

Hi Elbowroom,

I'm doing day 4 too ! I have a great idea - Let us do a bout ! You and me - who of us will scor more sober days that will win!

The contest shall be merciless and beyond the blood like in boxing .

What do you think. Do you agree?

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Elbowroom,
I do wish you luck. You are a hero coming to terms with your addiction without a partner to walk with.
You have shown me you already DO HAVE THE BALLS. You are committed to making positive steps or you would not be here.
I exercise regularly. As well as making you physically fitter, it is a fantastic way to get your head space sorted as well.
Although I have also found out that exercise does not seem to weaken the urge, so I have to watch out for that.
At Day 5, I look forward to seeing your future posts and walking our journeys together.
All in all best wishes.
ClearSkyComing

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Kind regards, CSC

"I wished for nothing beyond her smile, and to walk with her thus, hand in hand, along a sun-warmed, flower-bordered path. (Andre Gide)"

Been a NEW MAN since: April 16, 2012

Day 6


Hi clearskycoming, the problem with working out is that I used to do it regularly and then broke my arm in an accident and my arm hasn't healed since, it's been 18 months.
The truth is, I can still do a bunch of stuff, swimming, running, leg exercise, ab exercise, even some chest and back.
I should be going through surgery soon so I don't want to start with anything I'd have to stop soon after the surgery.

Thanks for the good faith in my courage.

I will go to the beach tomorrow and run for a few miles, that will cheer me up and clear my mind.
It is true, the mind get all cluttered if you are used to exercise and don't get work out.


Yup, sounds good.

Hi Elbowroom,

So we are continuing round 6 . I tell you flat I must win the battle and persevere at least one sober day more than you - so watch out and don't let be knocked out by me.

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Day 0

You win this time. I looked at some drawings of sexual nature.

I am happy that I only do this once a week nowadays. Maybe I'll hold up for two weeks this time.

Do not exaggerate!

If there were only drawings without masturbation or watching real pictures there wasn't any acting out.

That could and can lead you to acting out and it was unwise for an addict but it hasn't been acting out yet. What if one will recognise every gazing look at a beautiful woman or sexual fantasy as acting out? Almost all of us would wallow in day 0 !! ( forever )

It's dangerous to be punctilious that always leads to acting out and depression.
satan loves when people are punctilious he can defeat them easily then.


If you haven't used P/M yet stay in day 7 !!! ( it's the real fighting day for you not day 0 )

So we are continuing round 7.

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