Feed the Right Wolf

Many thanks Once again....I hope to take inspiration from what You've said...This Evening went to Church...Prayed Long & Hard....the Thought was there in the Mind as I returned Home, I switched on the P.C. almost immediately and and am Readin & Posting...The thought has now moved away...

Day 3 has passed off Well...Hope I can add a Zero to it and make it 30...Thanks...Cole2313...You inspire...

Terrible Sip-Up Last Night...seems Like I don't have Real Motivation to give up...at least I can be Honest posting on This Journal...Feel so Zombie, Tired out...Body is Creaking...all of This inspite of Praying, Fasting etc...shows that the Habit is Well & Truly alive within me...

Adalrichk, you need to get rid of the internet for a few weeks to help get you started.
Maybe you need to read some books on rewiring the brain, mindfulness, and get k9 or Netnanny.
somthing like that.
Try this. Do not give up!
Peter

Hi Peter,

Thanks, Yes I do need to do that...most Importantly I need to ask whether I am ready to Quit This Habit for Good?...

Day 1 Passed Off Well Yesterday....because I only Slipped Up Very Badly the Day before and through the Day YEsterday my Body was Creaking and I was Sleepy & Tired from the Previous Night's Marathon Session....As is the Case Immediately after a Major Slip-Up...the Anger, Frustration, Selp-Pity and Of-Course the Renewed Vigour or the Renewed Commitment is there to Beath This...but only for a Few Days....

Finishing Day 2, trying to think Differently now...Creating a Plan...I hope to make a Better Effort This time around and move forward...

I am alone at Home and have been since Evening....Went out in the Evening with Friend...Returned....thoughts were there...Sudddenly decided to go for a Run...felt Good....came back...Shower, Dinner...Creating a Plan to Recover...reading the Free Recovery Course...Wonderfully Articulated.....now Posting here...hope to make it further...

Day 3 of Latest Recovery Effort has gone well....about to get to Bed now and got other things to do Tomorrow through the Day...Trying to stay Away from Triggers...Think Differently....Stay Positive.

Good job so far, keep moving forward!

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Hi Absolution,

Thanks...Day 4, Sunday has just ended....Music Practice and Evening run...got Soaked in the Rain....followed up with Listening to a Lot Of Music....Off to Bed now....

Hopefully the New Week will be Better...

Day 5, Ended and ended well....with several Activities.....New Day now....hope this moves ahead.....Lots of Work to do...Being alert...

Day 6...about to End...Just a While back..I saw an Article with a Sitle about Porn Stars...my Eyes went Twice on it..but I then stepped back and Said "Why?'''.."Why Trigger myself Again"...Moments like These are Ones that cause Us to Act-Out....So I just Ignored it and moved on Posting here...It's Almost 7 Days since the Last Terrible Setback..

I am Praying Hard Everyday, but Trying to be more Positive now...I hope I can make it 30 Days now without any Slip-Ups this time Around...