3 March 2013
My first journal!
okay today actually I did the masturbation.
But I will honest here. My target is for 30 days. I hope I can make it the first week.
My biggest temptation is when I'm alone with the computer. I live in school dorm. I have 1 roommate. Every week he will go back to his house. So every weekend I will face this temptation!! Usually at midnight. I'm so easy to get tempted! Oh man..
Now, I want to commit that I will do the journal and manage my addiction.
Okay the reason why I did it today was bcause again nobody here, and I watch some trailer on youtube and suddenly something tempting. then you know I sometimes open porn from youtube. and sometimes google. I'm so afraid that school will know abt this and I will drop out!! bcause this is seminary school. Please help me GOD!!!
This semester actually become worse and worse. I didn't pray much everyday and my devotion is so bad. I didn't do it everyday.
I will pray tonight and beg for God mercy. Pray that I can really change with this journal and all exercise.
Actually I don't really understand abt ERP. can someone help me or give me some example with it? bcause my english is not so good. I'm from asian country.