Hey nice start and best luck.
. I began to become bored with reality and hardcore porn and sought out more extreme fetishes to satisfy my addiction. Again, no need to go into detail but it is amazing how some really disgusting/weird things turned me on while a simple picture of a naked woman would do nothing.
Every addict goes through this. Even i had developed some extreme fetishes and fantasies to satisfy my addiction. And i m still trying to get my mind back and be normal again.
It happens because the brain does not get the same sort of excitement from watching same thing again and again. It constantly needs something new to get the high.
Check out the website yourbrainonporn.com and watch the videos - you will feel much better after you understand the reason for your addiction to such extreme fetishes.
I remember I was about to have sex a girl and I couldn't get it up, not one bit. I'm still a virgin now and perhaps it was just performance anxiety, but I surmise that my overexposure to hardcore pornography has hindered my ability to get an erection on my own.
what you have deduced is true. Again the brain (after masturbating countless times to hardcore porn ) gets re wired and starts seeing porn as its way of having sex.
The more you stay away from porn - your brain would become normal.
Sorry to talk about this - but i guess its important to understand what we are dealing with and how brain works in order to give our best for our recovery.