hey destiny, I hope you're doing great.
Hi Flit~! Good luck for your exam .
It's happy to know that you're going to be accountant. For your information, I'm taking the same course as yours . Future accountant. It's just that I have another 2 and a half-year to complete my degree.
Owh.. By the way.. What's the meaning of that Urdu words? I'm in love with the language.
Thanks for your wishes. I really need them.
Well I am already an Accountant as I have finished my graduation already. This course is something more than just being an accountant. Its like for example, B.sc. Would be like my graduation degree and MBBS doctorate would be equivalent to my CA. So it's more than just being an accountant. Great to know that you're in the same field.
About the Urdu words. Well they weren't actually Urdu. That language was something else.
Heard about your situation with your girl. Situation like yours is so common these days. Girls do this alot of times. They hide their previous relationship while going into another one and simultaneously be in touch with their Ex in case everything gets resolved between them. They keep the new ones as an option and to divert their mind. Then they start having feelings for both of them and end up dumping one. Generally the new one. I have made a rule for myself that I'll never go in a relationship with a girl who has a serious past or who tries to hide their past. They're always complicated. I had a very bad past just because of the same Past thing of Ex. Just because of that single stale relationship now I fear to go into a new one. It's pretty clear from your posts that she doesn't seems to be in touch with you. So I would suggest you to move on.
About your frequent relapses. Well you are certainly lacking somewhere in your recovery, maybe you are going out of focus. Start being frequent back here. See you soon. Take cre.!!
Hi Flit . Thanks for your good reply. At least, I feel I have someone to relate with, feel belonged with the community.
I'm so fuckin' fed-up with girls. Failed relationships make me perceive the girls more or less the same as the bitches. Forgive me for the harsh words, it really symbolizes my inner hatred toward them, those fuckin' bitches that played with my heart. Now I believe I'm in the same position as yours, phobia to enter into a new relationship. I forbid myself from having any further romantic relationship except with my (future) wife. For the current relationship, I let it stale.
In someways, it was my mistake too. I turned to the 2nd girl as a way to heal my broken-heart with the first girl. It makes me realize that one should never tie oneself with a temporary goal. One should be committed to the ultimate goal in order to achieve true happiness. In this case, it is the interaction with God.. Life is the medium for us to know, and interact with the Creator. It may sound absurd, but that's the common-point of the major religion, based on my understanding from the readings/listening about Islam (Sufism), Buddhism, Christianity and Judaism. From Him we come, and to Him we return.
I do regularly come here (the forum) but was disappointed with no respond from other friends in recovery, except from freshstart and flit. Then I realize, I need a lot of attention and affection.. Damn! That's also only temporary things that I'm seeking after. It is the self-love that I'm lack off.
About the accountancy program, I pretty understand about it flit
. The value of an accountant will be higher if he has professional qualification. Wish you the best in your career
For the current progress, I made it for 3 to 4 days and always have relapse after that period, including today. Need to do homework on how I manage to survive for 50 days.
With then, bye~
"God, grant that I may seek to comfort rather than to be comforted; to understand,rather than to be understood; to love,rather than to be loved." - Alex Wolf