Loud music helps me too!!! And yes even harsh angry music haha.
I really did not like the comment posted above about comparing this addiction to a child's cancer however. A child has no choice, a child with cancer is not selfish or deceiving, a child with cancer has nothing that is within their control or their parents. To say that p&m addiction is like a child's cancer is ridiculous and yes I agree that it is very hard to deal with and not easy at all but those of you with p&m addiction have a choice and ultimately are in control, it is up to you how you chose to live your life and how you want to be. Very annoyed with that comment.
Now I need some Metallica haha!!!
I agree with the comparison of childhood cancer. I'm a cancer survivor, so I can relate to what you wrote...I didn't choose it, cause it through any behavior, hence, there's no similarity between that disease and the core addictions of s*x and porn.
Loud music has been my best salvation through rages. I've been realizing lately that I've been deeply traumatized by the extent of my SA/PA's acting out, how deep and broad the behaviors have been and how long they've manifested.
I'm glad to say that my husband began his recovery more than five months ago and is doing extremely well. Unfortunately, he's way ahead of me...the porn healing paradox. He feels so much better, and I'm still caught in his past, trying with all my might to walk through it with some balance and dignity.
All good things to you, Cappy.