I just read this today over on "Your Brain on Porn
Counting days is purely psychological. What's happening in your brain is what's important. A very common question is "does this relapse set me back to day one?" or "have I lost all of what I gained?" Even though we cannot peer into your brain, the simple answer is no. The gains you made cannot be erased with one binge. Each time you restart, it should become easier, depending on the length of your abstinence. Keep in mind that nearly everyone who recover from porn addiction relapses.
I think of the techniques I have learned here, which I will now call, my "anti-porn exercises" (my brand new, not copyrighted, made up term,) as a daily medicine. I have to take an actual pill each day for my cholesterol. If I don't take it, I don't feel it, but it shows in my lab tests as elevated levels.
The anti-porn exercises are even more important to me than my cholesterol meds. I try to do them every day. I don't manage to get to all of them every day, however, and when I miss too much, I start to feel it.
Having said all that, I know the guilt, shame, hopelessness, and worthlessness that relapses bring—boy! do I know them.
Vigilence. It's an endless battle, unfortunately, but one that gets easier (at least I've heard that.)
_________________“Remember, we do bad things, but we are not bad people.”
—Feed the Right Wolf
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