1. "Who cares about that new video, it won't make me feel good, it is just like any other sex scene. There's always going to be something new: for the rest of my life there's gonna be new videos I haven't seen, even if I binged for hours there would be something new, who cares."
I read that and it made me feel good, this is the sort of thing I face, thinking of the new young performer and the new scene that I haven't seen yet where everything is more intense than before.
It seems that no matter how much content you watch, there is always going to be a new performer that is more beautiful and that there is always going to be a scene that is more 'extreme' for lack of a better word in new ways.
In life, we are given the old ways of courting after a lady and hoping to attract her.
This takes a lot of time and energy so the instant gratification of watching a scene with a beautiful woman looms in waiting.
I respect you for making an effort to avoid this instant gratification, we all know it does not last.
Being with a loving woman, that can last, it does require much more work and dedication that doing nothing at all other than downloading a video and clicking play.