Feed the Right Wolf

Keep up the good fight. I love reading about your successful progress.

-v

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Life in every breath and cup of tea. Every step I take is progress.

Every time I get up from a stumble is a success. Peace be with you.

DAY 44

I had never met anyone willing to do great things for me. Someone that would say with all certainty and determination: "I wanna love you and I will do whatever it takes to get you to love me"

And I have met someone who is doing just that.

And that makes me happy. And great things are happening for me, like I opened a door and behind it there was a river of great things waiting for me.

And to think that I had not opened that door because I was too busy feeding the bad wolf.

I cannot describe how happy I am feeling knowing the correlation between stopping porn usage and allowing my life to change right before my eyes.

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Sobriety date: Apr 26th 2013.

Nice keep it up.

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Denial leads to repeated failure

Thank you for showing the benefits of recovery... I am happy for you

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Thank you friends!

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Sobriety date: Apr 26th 2013.

Day 45

The higlight of my days keep on being those moments I spend with loved ones. Today me and my family had lunch out and spent the afternoon watching a movie. It was a nice sunday.
The best part is I feel that the more time passes the more I forget about porn and the need to watch porn.

I understand I must stay vigilant, but thanks God these days I just think about porn because I know I am an addict in process of rebooting and not because I feel tempted to go back to those old days. I feel renewed, mostly when I look at sexy imagery that could have triggered me before and I look at it as just what it is and forget about it. I am also more able to control myself when I feel horny, I just let it pass, or do ERP exercises and it doesn't weigh on me like it used to.

I am more and more covinced that staying sober is easy and the rewards are quite worth it.

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Sobriety date: Apr 26th 2013.

Good to hear you are doing well. Happy to hear that the desire for visual material is decreasing. Keep up the good work!

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Last time I self-harmed: 6/3/13
Last time I masturbated: 6/17/13
Last time I watched porn: 6/17/13

I am defining porn not just as "real" porn, but anything that I'm watching for the sole purpose of lust and arousal.

How are you holding up, YoSoy?
When you speak of hope and joy, I find your posts contagious!
Hope to see your return soon,
TFP

Day 49

Hey there!!
My days are going really cool. Recently, I've started doing some meditations to rebalance my chakras. (I believe a lot in meditation and chakras, those centres of energy that relate to some aspects of our lives)

Anyway, these week I have been focused on the second chakra wich regulates sexuality. Do you know what happened some hours after the meditation? My stomach started to hurt and I felt nausea, like, strong.

And I realized the energy release is happening, that chakra´s energy was really stuck with poison (the aftermath of watching porn to such a degree that it was more normal for me to see imagery on a screen than actually having a partner to share my sexuality with) and so that poison was released and I felt sick for the whole day of yesterday.

Today I felt better, and I am still doing my chakra rebalancing meditation.

I know lots of folks may not believe in this, but I can assure you is a great technique. I really felt like I got rid of something.

And Well, I am happy to announce I am only 10 days away to post a 60 day anniversary.

@TheFlyingPickle
Thanks for your comment. I am discovering that the more joyous and hopeful I feel, it is more contagious even for myself! I am fortunate to feel this way, and my success on this day to day journey helps a lot to keep on feeling like that. Everyday I go to bed, I feel the satisfaction of staying sober, and that keeps me goings. Besides, life does change when we stop focusing on inorganic, fake and gross porn imagery and start really living, enjoying life. I thank God everyday for helping me continue on this healthy journey.

@tobefree
Thank you. I hope you are doing well too and as you, tonight, is one more day I am declaring victory over porn addiction!

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Sobriety date: Apr 26th 2013.

Hi YoSoy,

How are things going for you?

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore