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Day36done

Strong emotion passion for soccer

Strong Negative belief nil

Isolation went to work and spent all day there

Positive experience the soccer team I work for won the grand final

Things I am grateful for
my job
my country
My life

Comments awesome day out at the grand final, got pictures with all the players and with the cup as well

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Day37 done

Strong emotion wonder

Strong Negative belief nil

Isolation uni...went to gym

Positive experience I can be very social

Things I am grateful for
My friends


Comments great gym session today. I talked the girl I like about random things. I dont seem to have the same love I did a few weeks ago, maybe it was just of my high libido at the time.

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Day38 done

Strong emotion disapointment

Strong Negative belief my effort in combating this addiction is decreasing my ability to do things

Isolation uni...

Positive experience I need to study

Things I am grateful for one exam result but not the other

Comments uh I need to study tomorrow

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Day39 done

Strong emotion fear of falling

Strong Negative belief fitness models are OK to look at

Isolation biggest challenge sat at home and studied

Positive experience no porn

Things I am grateful for that I made it thro today

Comments possibly one of the closest days. Problem too lenient about fitness models. I need to use Facebook less. I should only go on once a day to control it. From now on I will only go on Facebook before I write my journal.

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Day40 done

Strong emotion confusion again

Strong Negative belief I a a bit of a failire. I have no real friends.

Isolation uni

Positive experience great interaction skills

Things I am grateful for religion , peace

Comments well a quit day but with a lot of conflicting emotions about my desires are. I briefly talked to a girl who loves me so much yet I dont want spend time with her. On the other hand, the girl I like spends a lot of time with one of my good friends and I know she likes him and he promised me not to get involved with her. I feel like I am just delaying the inevitable because they seem so suited for each other. All this equals confusion

Moreover all this confusion makes mee retreat into my own little shell and think that no one likes me. Which is compleltly wrong. When I go into a shell I dont talk very often and I keep getting lost in deep thoughts. If only things did not seem so complex

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Day41 done

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Day42done

Strong emotion anger and frustration about time wasting

Strong Negative belief I will only look for a little bit then it's ok

Isolation nil

Positive experience I studied well but wasted a bit of time

Things I am grateful for
time. Motivation

Comments getting closer to 60 and that feels great

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Hey Fresh,

Great job so far, just keep moving forward!

Your friend,
Absolution.

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Sobriety Date: October 25, 2011
"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it."
-Rabindranath Tagore

Thank you my friend
Day44 do e
Day 43 was really hard on many occasions I almost started to watch port while trying to study but everyone just before I would fall pull myself away from the computer and get back to reality. I read over my forum and focused on what my goals were which really helped. and I read other forum to reinforce myself. I I also blocked Facebook on my computer which should help. now I use my tablet to do everything

Day44 was good was at uni and studied
Comments the weekends are the hardest for me esp when I try to study hard. I need to ensure my defences are high before every weekend and no peeks.

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Day 46 done I have an exam tomorrow so I will post a long post after it

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