14ps. But none of them were productive just like from last 4days. One of the worse days. My whole scenario and plan for my exam has turned upside down. I am finding myself asking myself "are you kidding me.. At this point of time by all these lost concentration and lost focus..".
On one hand I have fixed my sleeping pattern but one the other my interest in studying has gone *poofed*. An hour back I found the real reason for all those five fucked up days. My moronic doc prescribed me "Clonazepam" it's a stress, anxiety relieving medic which lasts it's effect for 16-50hours. I am on it from last 5days. I take naps three times a day cuz of it's effect. I told this jerk that I need medics for having enough sleep to make myself all kickass fresh and in my senses to study and making my day useful. I guess this son of bitch just heard "bla bla bla.. no sleep.. bla bla.. want enough sleep.. bla bla bla.." and gave me this drug, cuz of this I haven't been studying effectively from last 5days. I am left with just 4days now. I just got this info about this medic after taking the last dose two hours back. So it's like tomorrow I'll be dozing off again for like two to three times. Everything around me is planning to wreck my exams, in Which so far they're pretty much successful. I had this target to finish three chapters in a single day which was easy peasy lemon squeazy for me but cuz of everything I have already wasted three days on them and still it's incomplete. I have no idea how I am going to cover all this left shit in next 4days. I am getting more and more tensed which is also not good for me.
. **sigh** I AM FUCKED UP.!
Tomorrow I'll be taking coffee three times to keep myself up whole day.
Please please pray for me.!! I am losing faith.!! :"(
I seriously don't wanna fail in these exams. :"(
If yu're in a hot air balloon, yu hv to burn some fuel every now & then to keep the air heated & stay high in the air. If yu wait until the balloon gets dangerously low, yu hv to burn a ton of fuel to gt bck up to whr yu need to be. - Absolution