Today was a rather busy day!
Alright so the seniors of my high school had their award ceremony and I got to be an usher. It was pretty fun, but stressful. It was embarrassing not being able to find the senior I was supposed to hand the award to, but I did well. I went to school completely dressed up, which I like doing every now and then. Over all it was a great day.Later that day I got a surprise. I recieved an award for having an outstanding, innovative ability. I am not essentially commissioned by the foundation to keep making new ideas every day. I like this So the school days was fun. I got to eat lunch during sixth period instead of my usual period because of the ceremony, allowing me to sit with my girlfriend. Wooo colors! But, with any great day, there are always some negative aspects...
My girlfriend and I had a little... not fight. But, drama, you could say. But we cleared it up. I originally felt angry, and sad, but now i'm much happier. I'm sad and disappointed that I had to study for the SAT today instead of see my girlfriend, but it will pay off in the end. She understands.
My day took a downward turn when I came home and found out my cat has pretty bad cancer, and that it's inopperable by now. he has a month to live, but we may end up putting him down as early as next monday.
I love him so much... I feel like I didn't treat him with enough love and respect in his life, and I can't go back in time. I just want him to know that all the time I spent "harassing" him and bothering him was because i was a little kid, and that's what little kids do. I didn't understand the significance of him being another organism, a living, breathing, feeling being. I lvoe him dearly and now he's gonna go... I cried so much today.
I've had such a busy and emotionally packed day that I didn't even have time to even think about lusting. Honestly, if every day were as busy, I wouldn't even have a problem recovering. I'm very, VERY vulnurable when I'm alone, bored, or depressed. I was none of those things today. I actually managed to sleep last night too
Well, not much, but with insomnia, anything counts.
Either way... SAT and Finals aside, school is almost done which means I'll be having my last, real, long summer vacation for a while. I want to enjoy it as much as I can. My final concern and fear is that since neither of us drive yet, what if the summer puts a big strain on my relationship? I don't know what to think about the subject. I mean on one hand I don't think it'll be that bad at all, I believe in us so much. But what if...
Anyway, day 5 got its artificial, pg-13 ass handed to it! I can keep this up! Porn is weak and I am strong!