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I relapse after every the days!! I get craving every day and urges! Sometimes I get too annoyed!!! And I think what is going to happen in my future the girl who's gonna marry is going to suffer allot!! She'll be unluckiest of all!! What will happen about my children!! Will I be ever be a good son or good husband or good father!! Will I be clean perfectly?? And other moment I get a feeling that my head is gonna burst due to cravings!! to be honest with u people I get my mind spoiled when my father hits my mom and she starts crying helplessly and I get so much angry I get thoughts that I won't be like my father!!! I feel lonely and helpless to my life and my self dignity falls day by day!

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Hi NewLife,

I. Have few questions. How old are you? What country do you live in? What behavior are you trying to abstain from?

Thanks,
Alex

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Am turning 17 next year!am from India! Am trying to get out of porn addiction am able to control some extent!! And quarrels at my house disturbs my mind and feel so depressed and losing interest in life!! Urges and cravings make the life miserable even more.

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It is normal to feel urges, especially when you are still a teenager, and going through very stressfull time.

I know that things are different in India, but I also know it is not OK for your father to hurt your mother. I am pretty sure you will be a much better man, than he is, because you already are.

As much as I think recovery from porn addiction is important, I don't think it should be your first priority. I think dealing with your family situation is your number one priority. Unfortunately I don't have a good advice in that area, I don't know enough about Indian culture. May be some of other people here could help. But if not you should search out some helpful resources in that area, such as how to deal with abusive parent etc.

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Hey newlife,
I m really glad that you posted here.Like Alex said to me that depression is a really serious problem.So Plz take a appointment with a professional as soon as possible .Things are really different in India.I can understand your situation cause I m from India and I also belong form a violent family.My father and sister are alcoholic.They fight with each other every night. Every time I try to stop them.Sometime it's work,sometime they act like animals.Addiction,violence,guilty those feelings are became a part of my life.But what I learned that I have to stay sober to deal with this type of situation cause sobriety is a Fight behavior,that weakens stress response neutralizing the stressor such like depression.In this way you can deal with that type of negative situation more positively.Hope that help you. ..Behind all of this remember one thing my friend no matter what situation you are facing in your life you are not alone, we are always here to help you.Take care..