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I just saw a documentary about prostitution in Cuba. I don't recommend you guys to look at this because it does have some naked ladies in it. All the young girls in this documentary resemble my daughters' in some way. I would hate one of my daughter's to become like one of those kids. After looking at this video I definitely would not be looking at naked ladies with lust anymore. These ladies are just poor and without their makeup they just look tired and a bit sad. After you get into their personal lives, they really don't seem that all attractive and you just feel that if you could you might even want to help them. They don't want to get out of prostitution because regular jobs don't pay as well for them to support their families. Makes me feel like dirt for being a pervert.

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100days,
As far as porn is concerned I am done with it. I am not even tempting my self with thumbnails like before. So no more perverted behavior for me. Now that I am not doing porn I have much more time on my hands to work on other issues in my life. Like the atmosphere in my home. Yesterday I got angry twice for somethings that were rather insignificant and i broke the calm atmosphere. I still have to deal with my big daughter's partying. My wife still likes to throw my Christianity in my face every time I get angry. Just want to say that getting rid of porn don't automatically fix your life but it is one less issue to deal with if you are able to manage it.

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Well done in getting over,,,,I think over time We realize that it's all Fake and it leads to Perversion....You're right...even looking at Thumbnails means being perverted and can lead to Acting -out...so why Tempt Oneself only?..

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I congratulate you on your accomplishments and putting this addiction behind you. However, I don't consider myself or anyone else here a pervert. We have a problem, similar to alcoholics and prostitues. Is a prositute a pervert? In my opinion, they are not. Just similar to us that they only see one way to support their families. We only see one way to sexual or adrenaline satisfaction. I also have issues with anger and have been able to apply some of the anger tools to address this addiction. For me, these 2 issues have helped me identify that I'm addicted to the adrenaline rush, not to the sex or anger. Sex and anger are just a mean for achiving that 'high'.

Regardless, your achivements are great. I wish you success and happiness as move on to greener pastures, away from this disease.

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Many Congratulations...Excellent Stuff!!!...Keep Up The Good Work...This is Inspiration for all of Us...

Getting rid of porn in my life was not an easy struggle. I couldn't do it without God. There will always be a part of me that asks the questions. Like why? Or why not?
The answer is simple now.
I want to be with Jesus.

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Perhaps you may be wondering why I don't count days anymore like most people here. It is in the Bible that a guy can live his whole life as a bad guy, but if he repents and finds God's forgiveness, nothing that he ever did matters and he goes to heaven. The opposite is true for a guy who lives his whole life as a good guy, but towards the end, he falters and becomes evil in his ways with no repentance in his heart. He ends up in hell.
This got me thinking that God's way of viewing integrity is different from ours. You don't really gain any points with God with what you have done in the past. It is what's in your heart in the very moment that matters. Integrity is what you are in the now, moment to moment. Don't think about what you have done in the past, or how you would be in the future, but what you are doing now and what you plan to do now. Nothing else really matters!

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I will cease being a slave to my past.

It has been some time now without porn. Will not go back there again, but only because I am focused on the present. The past is done and the future is just plans. I can only live in the present, in the presence of God.

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It has been some months since I last did porn, but last night since my family went out for the night and I was left home alone, the old cravings started back. I had to take off the computer and go to sleep. Just goes to show that time is not a factor in getting rid of the addiction but good habits and responses to ones cravings is what that matters. Also a strong belief that God is ever present and guiding you even when you are alone. It may seem childish to some but it works for me. Also reading Gods word. I don't see myself doing porn after I just read a portion of the bible.

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I will cease being a slave to my past.