Alright guys, I want to get back into the recovery process, and I'm stuck on ERP.
So I understand what I'm supposed to do generally. I'm to visualize a tempting situation, then monitor my physiological symptoms like heart rate and breathing, breath deeply, read my affirmations, and finally go do something healthy. I understand it, and the theory behind it, but I have a problem in the visualization stage.
I can't seem to visualize anything realistic enough! Everything and anything i tried to think of never got me anywhere NEAR to the feeling I have when I'm legitimately tempted to act out and watch. I tried a few times and I don't know what it is. Am I just incapable of it? What do you guys do? It's as if my logical brain is always telling me "this is just a fake thought, it's not real, you have a filter, this wouldn't be possible anyway." So I'm not able to "trick my mind" into thinking what I'm imagining is real, and hence I don't know if I can even do the ERP. What do I do?
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
- 1 Corinthians 6:19-20