Feed the Right Wolf

Thank you for posting your victory over the weekend. It is so encouraging.
I have the same problem: weekends can be particularly tough in terms of the addiction because that is when I feel the need to "relax" and the urges can be overpowering. So while I look forwards to weekends, I also have to be particularly vigilant, just like you. I have to remind myself every Friday evening how good it feels to have a clear head and a soul at peace.

Every day that passes of sobriety is a victory. Having made it through the toughest part of the week is a HUGE accomplishment. Every weekend you make it through helps reduce the frequency and weakens the urges. Keep up the great work MovingForward. Your doing great!!!!

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Thanks for the support guys.

And Dauntless I completely agree, Friday is a good time to take a step back and make sure you are focused for the weekend.

This weekend is almost through and I am still clean! Feels great. It has not come without temptation and close calls... but I stayed strong and feel MUCH better for pulling through those situations. I feel like my head is above water for once.

Thanks for reading guys, best of luck with your week and stay strong.


MF

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Weekend is here. Still staying strong. I am sure urges will come about this weekend but I am determined to stay clean. It has been great to be making progress, but I cannot get complacent.

MF

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Hi MovingForward.

Weekends can be tough but as one wise man said, "it's about how much you can take and keep moving forward" From my own experience, when I didn't do something meaningful (whatever, just to spend my time in useful way), I slipped to porn just in a moment. So good choice of activities is important...even sleep (so I don't wonder if I often wake up between 10-11 AM in the weekend).

I agree with Cole, every weekend you endure just makes you stronger... but also every single day. You can relapse but after every day you're stronger and more experienced.

Good luck.

Shadow

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Thanks Shadow. That's a good point - I find that as well. Urges come more easily if I do not find ways to do fill up my time on the weekends. I think that is essential.

Almost had a breakdown last night, but stayed strong and feel better because of it today. I feel a lot better actually. It seems I really got stuck into that guilt cycle for a couple months and it really affected me.

I have never been stuck in quicksand, but that is what I feel it relates to. I can feel the temptation pulling me down, sometimes to be incredibly overwhelming. But every weekend I make it through is another step closer to being free, feeling liberated, and being more in control.

MF

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quicksand....that's a great analogy.

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Thanks Cole, I'm sure we can all relate to that feeling.

I know I haven't posted on here in a while, but I have been on vacation for 10 days. I am still on a victory run and have not had a re-lapse! It feels great. I feel like I have started coming a live and am beginning to learn about who I am again. It is interesting, however. It seems my addiction has been an effort to deal with things about myself that I disliked, and with the fact that I did not put any effort into who i was as a person. Now having been over a month, some of these things are beginning to re-surface. Very interesting process.

overall, just excited and motivated to not give up, and continue to keep taking steps forward.

MF

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Well, I let boredom get the best of me on Saturday. First relapse since July 5th. It feels good to have gone so far, but a little bummed about this. After having gone 6 weeks or so without a relapse, I can really notice the emotional and mental effects of this the last one. Something I didn't know when I was more stuck in the cycle of it all. Very interesting.

Nevertheless, I am determined to press on and go even longer this time. The taste of victory these past 6 weeks is great for motivation this time around.

MF

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Middle of the week. Has been good so far. Am staying strong and keeping a good perspective on things. This last 6 week run has really done wonders for my confidence and self-belief, and makes me even more amped this time around.

MF

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